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my cancer recovery and my thoughts on God.

so I am recovering from the cancer surgery just fine thanks to my powerful and caring medical team, its been hell on earth, they removed a massive tumor from my left kidney and looked around on my right side for more cancer, I did not think I could survive this, the pain and suffering was beyond comprehension,at times I just wanted to die, death would have been so sweet compared to the pain, I know that so many of you have had to go through this and I am so sorry, I feel for you and I understand, I do not think I will go under the knife again, I just cannot take the pain and suffering, I talked to God and asked all of the really hard questions like why me, and why anyone, why is life so hard and stressful, why did you create such a mess, why did you create anything at all, sometimes I do not believe in the God of the Bible, I believe it to be much more complex then all of that.we live in a very strange and mysterious universe, it is the matrix,so much suffering and pain and stress and

Wondering by Kiler Davenport

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I wonder. I wonder why I wonder. Who is the one wondering? How did the idea of wondering come up anyways? As one who wonders I stay in trouble one way or another. I always asked the really hard, if not impossible questions. I am not into chit chat. I know it has its place, but that place is not for me. For me, it is all or none when I am communicating. My people are here to free you from the machine. All of you have been programmed to the machine. You have been indoctrinated into the matrix, and it is all in your mind. Yes, it is all just an illusion happening in your brain and central nervous system.